Crying for a crowd

So as twisted as it sounds, do you ever wish your pain ever had an audience?

Like when you cry, for instance. Do you find solace in the fact that people are watching you suffer? And if the pain is caused by a person, do you secretly hope that they will somehow chance upon you weeping your eyes out or call at that moment to hear you sob on the phone?

I'll confess to all of the above, only I'm at a loss to understand what it says about me.